My View of Hardpressed by Meredith Wild

In this book, which is number two in this series, Erica thinks that this new chapter in her life will be the happiest one she's ever had. Boy, is she totally wrong.

She finds her father and that was supposed to be a decent relationship. Maybe not a particularly close one but civil. It turned out to be a lot more trouble than it was worth.

While he runs in an election for Governor, he wants Erica's help with the media aspect. However, his step-son Mark is the one who raped Erica years ago and is causing problems now.

Blake, Erica's boyfriend, told him that he needed to send Mark away. Where, he didn't care just get him and keep him away from Erica. That was the wrong tactic to take with this guy because he killed his step-son and made it look like a suicide.

After, he told Erica about it and also gave her an ultimatum. She ditches her company and works for him as well as dump Blake or he removes Blake from the equation permanently.

This was supposed to be a happy time in her life, she found someone she loves deeply and her father, whom she had never known. Instead it's turning into a nightmare.

Erica's choice rocks her world and Blake's. To protect the man she loves, she dumped him. Weeks they spent in their own personal hell just because she loved him too much to be the cause of his death.

How will they find their way back to each other? Especially now that an employee of hers knows she's single and wants a shot at her heart.

Things just got crazy in Erica's life and all she wants to do is be happy.  

That's all anyone ever wants yet continuously it seems to be just out of Erica's reach. I'm rooting for her because her pain is  literally breaking my heart here.

No In Between- Lisa Renee Jones

I started this one about two days ago actually. See I really need to do a better job keeping up with this.

No in Between is the fourth book in Lisa Renee Jones' Inside Out Series. Originally it was a trilogy but I'm finding out that when an author says that there's going to be another couple books after the last one because there is always more to be said.

This series was no different. She could have ended the series after Revealing Us but there's still Ella missing and what's going on with Mark Compton.

In book four, Sara and Chris are back in San Fransisco to "aid" the police investigation of Rebecca's murder. The police there are running all kinds of theories that may or may not be probable.

They had called Sara in Paris to say that Ava was accusing Sara of murdering Rebecca and blackmailed Mark so Ava had confessed to protect her "Master."

Now the cops are switching gears, they are asking questions to see if maybe Sara murdered Rebecca to endure her dream job would stay hers. They are also going down the avenue that maybe Mark had something to do with this mystery and maybe even Chris.

Things have just become a hot mess for everyone involved now. Sara's even going back to work for Allure (Mark's art gallery) for a few weeks while things are getting settled. Mark's mom is battling stage 3 breast cancer and ended up with a blood infection just before he came back to talk to the police.

I can't imagine what Mark is going through right now. All that pain he has just got to be feeling over everything. It honestly makes your heart hurt.

Before I say anything else here's the synopsis from the back of the book so you can draw your own conclusions:

"Was Rebecca murdered--or has she simply vanished? Sara's obsession with Rebecca's fate has already lead her into danger once. Now the woman who nearly killed her is making accusations that implicate Sara in Rebecca's disappearance. Forced to defend herself to police investigators, Sara must expose dark private pleasures that she and her fiance, Chris, share. And while Chris remains strong and supportive, the formerly invincible Mark is crumbling. He's been too intimate a part of their lives to let that happen...but will he accept help?

Although Sara and Chris love each other deeply, the pressure is triggering past pains. To make it through this, they must face and reveal their final fears: Everything must be exposed, and their hearts and bodies will be pushed to the limits. There can be no shame. No more secrets. No in between..."

Yeah, it definitely leaves you wanting more lol.

Being Me- Lisa Renee Jones....DONE!!!!!

Good afternoon everybody. I hope that you have all been enjoying my blog so far this year. I am making a better effort to be on here more. This series though has me enthralled.

As of this afternoon, before my family had even gotten home from grocery shopping today, I finished Being Me. I think this is a record for me, even when it comes to the first time I read Fifty Shades of Grey. I started it at around 8:30 last night and finished around maybe 1;30 or 2 this afternoon.

The ups and downs and twists and turns really got to me to keep reading. Can you see why I love my husband so much now? I totally shut him out for a book lol.

Everything at this time seems fine in Sara and Chris' relationship and things are even ok with her and Mark. Lines have been drawn and Mark swore he won't cross them.

Sara even gets Mark's blessing to go to Los Angeles with Chris to his charity function for cancer. It's there that she meets the little boy that has captured Chris' heart. Dylan has leukemia and there is no doubt that he is dying. The most they can do is make him comfortable and keep his spirits up.

Usually I wouldn't mention sad facts like that except this is a turning point for both Chris and Sara. At the gala function, Sara runs into her ex, Michael. The things he says to her are awful and he tries to blackmail Chris to get Sara to go home with him. It's the past that she wasn't ready to share yet rearing it's ugly head.

Of course Chris sees more than he should when it comes to Sara, so when she runs off to the bathroom he follows her and has two of his female friends keep a look out for him while he tries to talk to her. Bawling her eyes out on the floor of the bathroom she tell Chris. Two years ago she was feeling weak and Michael was being kind and she let him in her door. From that point he forced himself on her. She had said no but then ultimately gave into him and did exactly what he was asking her to do. Sara thought for sure that Chris would hate her after that confession but no, he actually confessed that he loves her.

I was so shocked lol. It's a good thing that I don't really read in public because all eyes would have been on me when I started squealing and laughing. It was a point that you shouldn't laugh and be happy but the moment itself was so sweet that you just can't help it.

Chris took care of her that night and the information didn't change how he thought of her. As he put it, one night doesn't dictate a lifetime. That night had made love to her like never before and it was so sweet.

The next turning point was Chris' turn. It was only a few days after they had returned home that Sara received a call from Dylan's mother. Dylan had just passed away but she was worried about Chris because when she told him, he didn't take the news too well.

Now here, this is where we see the side of Chris that Sara was never supposed to see. The dark side of this protective man. Unlike Fifty Shades of Grey and even the Crossfire Series, Chris does not revel in giving pain. He's not the dominant that we are all used to seeing in other series or even in this one. Chris likes pain.

Mark to her to his club to try and pull Chris back from the edge of the abyss. He honestly thought that Sara was the only one that could and it needed to be done because Chris was pushing limits that were way past safe. When Sara walked into the room and saw that Chris was chained up to some poles and being beaten she was shocked.

That would be enough to shock anyone but she got him to stop....at a price. Broken inside and bleeding on the out, Chris was in agonizing pain that she saw him like that and told her it was over. Chris was trying to protect her from himself and forced her away.

It was a week, I think, that she had just stopped eating. Sara wasn't even sleeping. Mark gave her some more to do in her new client's apartment building that was being built. Seeing as the owner, Ryan, and Mark were friends it was easy to convince Ryan to let her do the work. However it was after the opening night that Sara figured things out. Mark and Ryan offered her a way out of the pain she was drowning in. Master and submissive. Sharing. Everything that Rebecca had done with no feeling whatsoever.

Sara never wanted that life. Not even the pain she felt over Chris could make her choose that life and she ran out. To her surprise, Chris was waiting outside for her. Not one word from him and now all of a sudden he shows up. It's funny. Chris pushed her away and yet drove himself insane without her. Two broken people that NEED each other to pull out of the darkness. Now that is something that doesn't seem to change in any book.

It was that night that they decide to try and work through this and figure it out more. No more secrets, no more shutting each other out. Then there's one other little secret that Sara finds out. Packing to go see Chris' god parents, Sara finds Chris' paint brushes.....that match the one that Rebecca had kept.

That leads to a fight that takes Sara to Mark's house. At the time she knew that she was interrupting something but didn't know what. That is until Ava, the girl she thought that she made friends with and owned the coffee house next to the gallery, came stomping out in only a shirt and with Ryan in tow.

Ava threatened that Mark wasn't going to do the same thing with Sara that he did with Rebecca. She would kill her first before that happened again. Which she did try to do.

In that moment everything happened so fast. Ava had a gun on her and Chris was riding his Harley down the street to get there for her not even knowing what he was walking into. Ava fired a shot that sent Chris crashing and somehow the police got called. Thankfully they arrested her but it put Sar and Chris' relationship on rocky ground.

Chris hated that she turned to Mark for the facts instead of trusting him but even though he vowed it would be over if he found her here, he was giving her another chance. It was that evening that Ava confessed. She had killed Rebecca before she could take Mark back again. Very nearly killed Sara for the same reason except that's never been the relationship between her and Mark.

Ella is still missing and there's a gaping void in Sara's heart at the distance that Chris has put between them. Sara spent that night in Ella's empty apartment. Chris showed up for all of five minutes with another one of his little tests. He's leaving for Paris in the morning and he wants her to go with him.

There were no fluttery words, no romance just a simple if you want to know all of me then this is where you'll find it. Just leaving her there and the book in an emotional turmoil.

Does she go and risk her heart again for this man or does she stay and try to make a life for herself again?

I'm On My Knees Now

Normally if I can't get a book, I would just give up. You know if it's not in print anymore or not in my price range no amount of research or looking will get it for me. 

However when it comes to this specific book, I have now sunk to my knees. This is the only book, literally the only book that I need to complete my Nora Roberts collection. I even have all of her JD Robb books, does that tell you how much I love her?

The only problem right now is that this book is out of print. I wrote to Turn the Page and as of today I have written to Nora Roberts' publisher. I am seriously begging here for this book. 

I can't afford fifty dollars for one book but if I can't find it any other way I'll start putting money aside for it. I've searched high and low and not even second hand stores have the book. 

Now I am asking anyone that sees this post. If you see this book I'd love to know. Not finding it is breaking my heart here.